Lessons in self pity.

ok so here's the deal. I'm still not over him it's now getting incredibly stupid, my brain is constantly screaming "HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU YOU STUPID BINT GET A LIFE" but I just can't quite let it go.
I am still doing things for his benefit. I haven't eaten for days, my abs are constantly burning from the millions of sit ups, my legs hurt from the miles I'm running. And yeah I've lost half a stone in 2 days, but if we think about this logically he didn't leave me because I'm fat as I know he found me attractive (though fuck knows why), he left me because I'm psychotic. No other reason.
So I will go to 6th form in Cambridge weighing 7 stone. But he won't care. He won't even know.

I could go on writing for hours. Pointless words that won't get my best friend/lover back..so I won't I'll just go for a run.